Monday, January 11, 2016
Little bit crazy
Having operated this equipment for a while now, and being kind, gentle and fair - really, not kidding - I usually know when things start to tilt, and I tell my loved ones that it's coming as soon as I feel it. I often apologize in advance because I don't know what will set me off nor how it will splat on someone, only that it probably will - sooner rather than later. It's not what I plan to do, not what I wish for, and it is what it means to be human. Sometimes things get messy. So long as I own up, explain as well as I can, apologize, grovel a little and let it go, things usually work out. I know the people who love me wish I could do better. Head it off at the pass. Be a little less enthusiastic in blessing their hearts. I honestly do too. Self correcting is important after you own up. But so far - and I have been young for a long, long time, now, trying to self correct for quite a while - this seems to be the best I can do. I can live with that. Mostly, I keep the crazy tucked up just fine. Sometimes it flaps in the wind. It is what it is.